For a friend in distress:

The ocean between us teems with jettisoned dreams. As I reach out to you I see the shape of another in your eyes. Your skin still burns with her betrayal so you recoil from my touch. The silence is filled with echoes of doors banging shut.

But if you look from behind the heavy curtains, what you will see is me. Eyes wide open looking back at you, hands outstretched to give, and a heart with wide open gates to welcome you. From my mouth: truth.

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The first time I remember coming across the word dilemma was back when we were doing Mark Twain’s Huckleberry Finn. Tom had a ‘moral dilemma’. Well, I am not having a moral dilemma, just a personal one - a choice that exists to be made. (more…)

Whoo boy!! I must be a really unreasonable person! How could I think to suggest that someone attempt to minimize the disruption they cause in class? I put forward what I thought were 3 feasible alternatives:

1. Put the phone on vibrate and keep it on you so you know when it rings

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These were all in the last few days (gotta love this place):

• 4 amazing bands (BWIA Invaders, Phase II, Desperadoes, All Stars) all gathered in one place (All Stars panyard) just to jam and celebrate All Stars anniversary
• Virtuoso solo pannists doing their recital for their degree (look where pan has reached!)
• A choir of about 30 people singing the latest soca songs (interesting concept, eh?)
• Exodus practising their festival pieces outdoors under a starlit sky

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Some weird stuff I found out about Trinidad this week: (more…)

Wow!! One whole week out of touch! I was starting to feel like I was on some deserted island. My list below:
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“Parting is such sweet sorrow”. Puhleeese!! Saying goodbye is always hard (unless there was never any good, in which case it is more of a ‘good riddance’). I have said my share of goodbyes, to teachers, schools, friends, family, boyfriends, hopes, dreams. It never gets any easier.

I’m posting tonight because I don’t know how much time I will have tomorrow morning. Now before you go thinking this is a goodbye to my friends, family or even pan, let me just interrupt. Those are all people I will find here when I come back in a few months time (all being well). To them this is more of a ’see you soon’. I will miss you all!! (more…)

• A really good first kiss
• Turning on the radio just in time to hear the start of a great song
• That “cozy spot” on your bed
• Getting a hug from a child
• Reading a good book from start to finish in one sitting
• An extremely cold grape soda
• Catching a friend online because 4am your time is 12 noon their time (Love you Rana!!)

Here’s another one to inspire some more thought:

accept me for what I am
appreciate me as myself
i am not perfect
it doesn’t worry me
i have many failings
but i am unique
a one-of-a-kind me
and that is something to be proud of
i can change
let me do the changing though
for i will be responsible
for the mistakes i make
and the accomplishments i achieve
i want to be the way i am
that is my decision
and if you can’t see that
then don’t blind me
with what YOU THINK i should be
for i am me and nothing else

     - Anne Bach

I am tired of trying
To figure out how to be,
What to say,
The right way to look
And act,
To make everyone
Satisfied with me.

I want to be
What I am
Before I can’t
Find myself anymore.

     - Gloria Biris