Editorial note: Ok, I am a little annoyed because I had written a poem a couple days ago that I planned to post but lo and behold I get here and can’t find it in my bag. I will have to assume I left it at home which is too far to walk to come back here just now, so I have to post something else. What’s written below has been on my mind for a while so gonna use that for today’s post.

I have always believed that each person is a never-ending work-in-progress and I figure that rather than just let the changes happen randomly and arbitrarily (as this is not always for the better) we should play some part in the changes that happen. Over the last several years I have made a conscious effort to undertake improvements of myself. Each year on looking back I can identify one particular aspect of myself that I managed to work on. I’m just gonna summarize some of the recent years’ projects:

2005:-

• Started out this year determined to start figuring out what my PASSION IN LIFE was and the resulting purpose. I think I have made a good start with my current studies so that’s on track.
• I also decided that since pan is one of my loves, I need to do some work on my musical ability so I can contribute in the way I would like. Hence the efforts in music theory and ear training. So far, it’s still going but the Trinidad thing kind of threw off my schedule.
• I now realize that one of the biggest things for me this year has been LETTING GO. Since the start of the year I have said goodbye to 3 people who were very important to me but who, for one reason or another, could not (or would not) have me as a part of their life. As hard as this has been for me, I think I have come out of it stronger in some ways. I did also have to let go of the idea of being in the I.T. field which was my focus for the last 10 years.

2004:-

• This year acted as a follow-on to 2003 in terms of honesty. But this year I worked on being HONEST TO OTHERS around me, and that meant with things good and bad. This placed a lot of stress on some of the people around me who were unaccustomed to the level of honesty I was striving for and could not see the need for it. I think all in all I worked a lot of stuff out of my system this year.

2003:-

• A big one for me this year was learning to be HONEST WITH MYSELF about my feelings and then trying to be true to them. I managed to save myself a lot of stress by admitting to the way I felt about things and people in my life.
• The other big one was learning to not let other people’s crap get to me and to LIVE MY LIFE. I had a lot of crap to deal with coming from 2002 and this year I finally figured out that other people’s stuff often had nothing to do with me and by letting it get to me I was working myself up over nothing.