Sometimes in life we have chance encounters. We cross paths with something that helps to complete us. Something that fills our life as though it were a lost part of our souls now rediscovered - so perfect is the fit, you are made for each other. And no matter the stresses it brings, every moment is worth it because we can’t imagine our lives without it.

Well I have come to accept that this has been my experience. This is what I am caught up in. And though I have tried to fight it, I can deny it no longer - PAN and I are destined to be.

I had this reaffirmed last weekend when I had my first proper opportunity to play since being in TT. As exhausted as I was in the week, all I could think about was getting to play on Sunday. I dragged my tired brain and body to rehearsal and crammed 3 songs in my already overflowing brain. And Sunday there I was, on the road, with Exodus!! We played for hours but I could have kept going. Forget school and presentations (I had 2 on Monday). I would have played all night! I think the other cello players realized how badly I wanted to play cause they only switched me out once for about 15 minutes.

I’ve created my own saying for my feeling. You know how they say “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned”? Well mine is “Heaven hath no joy like myself with a pan”. Of course, Sunday made me regret not having had the opportunity to do more while here but I think I made up for the whole 3 months in a couple hours.

Pam da dam padam (Look di band comin’)