I had a conversation last night (well, technically this morning) with an old friend that I rediscovered. One of his observations was that I seemed more in tune. He was pleasantly surprised because he felt that most people don’t reach that point because they are too scared of the possibility of change… scared of really living, scared of dying and everything in between.

I realized that I need to be happy and to do that I had to start understanding myself and what makes me happy. I can’t say that I am happy yet but I am actively working on it. When I think about it I don’t know what a truly happy Bianca would look like and in fact my life is currently the journey to find that out. And the thing that makes this journey so much fun is not knowing how far away I am, knowing that happiness could be right around the next bend. Of course, interestingly enough I have no way to know now how I will know when I reach that point but the way I see it people can always strive for a higher level of happiness than where they are. So maybe there is no finish line, no banner to say you are here, you did it, you are now HAPPY!

So many people put off their happiness thinking that it will arrive when they achieve a particular thing, the right job/career, the right guy/girl, the right house etc. What they don’t realize is that as beautiful as the horizon is, you can’t get there. There will always be a horizon in front of you. The key to finding your happiness in life is enjoying the journey. I reached this point where I figured out that I need to be enjoying my journey and this accounts for my recent changes. I’m still not sure where it will lead but I know I will be having fun getting there.