Coulda been
As life rolls on, we often have to forsake plans we made and make new ones as the “deadlines” we set seem to slip through our grasp. But sometimes when you look back you can see that there are good reasons for not achieving what you thought you wanted. Many times you would have had to settle for less than you truly want or deserve in order to “get there”.
So where I am now?
- I have a lot of life experience I would have missed if I stayed with my first serious boyfriend
- I am living at home in Jamaica where my heart is instead of loving long-distance for years and then having to move abroad
- I am not dealing with temper tantrums, jealousy, and possessiveness that could have eventually turned out worse
- I finished my university education when I could have found myself married to someone who wasn’t sure what love is
- I know the value of being treated well but know it’s not enough if I don’t love the person
- I am not the life support for someone with no direction and little ambition
- I am an intelligent woman who won’t accept being being treated as inferior
Yes, I am still “looking” because I would love to find someone to share my life with who wants to do the same but until then I have my friends, my family and myself to love me, and I will continue to grow and enjoy life, without settling.
Right now I am feeling kindalazy and relaxed...
…at least the non-soca ones 
