Lock down!

UPDATE: I have reconsidered and reopened my blog to the public, but I’m leaving this post to explain the hiatus.

 

I have relished writing on this blog for the last 6+ years. It has been my outlet, my escape, my avenue for self-expression, my personal space albeit out in public. I’ve never invited people to read but some do, and I have welcomed them and their comments.

In my life, I have had to give up many things for various reasons. I have made financial sacrifices towards creating something greater for myself and for those important to me. I have made personal sacrifices to facilitate goals of an easier and happier life. I have followed my heart and abandoned paths to possible greater wealth. I have given up expressing myself to people because no matter how much tact is used some people don’t want to hear things they won’t like. I have given up friends to accommodate others’ insecurity. I have given up other friends to allow them to be whatever they want to be even where that will not allow for our friendship to exist. I have given up a lot. One thing that has held me steady was that I had the freedom to write what was in my head and my heart.

I refuse to stop writing. However, before I begin to be interrogated about my personal feelings and opinions, I will have to remove your freedoms.

In short order, this blog will become private, open only to those I deem worthy of reading it. It will remain my personal space to be me. But only those I decide to permit will be allowed in the door.

It is becoming obvious to me that the world I am forced to be a part of is not going to be compatible with me being completely me. So in a few days, the door will shut. Access will initially be provided to most (not necessarily all) of those people who have willingly joined me here and participated through their comments and support. I will likely email you or contact you otherwise to provide instructions for your continued access. I will in the future provide a way for others to request access from me. But be warned. Denials will be given. I will be disabling the public RSS feed for this site but will provide an option to subscribe by email for those of you that will still have access.

For those of you who have been reading and enjoying, but not commenting for one reason or another, feel free to drop me an email this weekend (or via the form below) to be added to the list. No need to comment publicly if you have reasons for avoiding that. Also if you’d never left your email address or use a different one now, as before, let me know.

Does it suck? Absolutely, but I need to maintain my sanity. And that will require me to have the freedom to vent/comment/observe/expound when necessary without the “outside” world feeling the need to question my right to write what I wish. I will have other blogs that are public, which will be on topics far less personal than my feelings and opinions on life.

So this is a farewell of sorts. Hope to see somebody on the other side.

Live. Love. Learn.
Bianca