I loved you once
You broke my heart
But it turned out
You were playing a part
Unknown to you
or me at the time
Following the path of
your subconscious mind
For years I hoped
You’d share your life
I left that door open
And kept you in sight
The silence instead
Cut to my soul
Till I accepted
My heart with a hole
But now you are here
Knocking on that door
I have to wonder
just what’s in store
I look at this face
Across from me
The man I once loved
is the person I see
A friend that I lost
To himself long ago
Is now reaching out
To say “Let’s go slow”
I’m trying to start over
To just find a way
But I don’t know how
or what to say
So bear with me now
As I think all this through
And separate memories
from the idea of you

An inner child
seeking approval
watches to see if you’re looking
only to realize that
the only eyes worth feeling
are those looking from inside

Even though I did
what only a few others could
Even though it worked out
in the end as I knew it would
Even though I was here
with nowhere else to go
Even though it seemed easy
for me to keep giving a show
Even though it was stress
not knowing what would come next
Even though it was pain
putting my wrists to the test
Even though I loved
belonging to all and everywhere
Even though I hated
feeling like part of nowhere
Even though it was tiring
to use up my days off
Even though I reminded
myself that this is what I love
Even though I offered
to turn into a work horse
Even though I was warned
I’d be taken for granted of course
Even though noone thought
to say thanks for giving in my own way
Even though I’m saying it to me
I thought that I’d still say

You’re welcome

My eyes open to a new dawn
Alive! My heart screams
So long I feel that I’ve been gone
A lifetime passed it seems

A low rumbling flows beneath my skin
My muscles start to wake
A buzzing energy stirs within
My quiet world begins to shake

A smile returns to golden light
My eyes aglow with silent power
The soul responds to every sight
As new moments begin to flower

Passion is the present game
My heart and soul can rejoice
My body and mind can’t feel the same
My life has found it’s voice

The sun has now risen
The dark night is passed
The next five minutes
Of sleep need to last
Try to raise your head
The morning is here
The day that you dread
Is dawning so clear
The weekend is over
You know that it’s true
A new week is starting
At work you are due
So force yourself up
Get out of that bed
Feet dragging so slowly
Grey clouds in your head
Today will be better
Such lies you repeat
As you try once again
A Monday to greet

In reflected light
my eyes adjust slowly
to see a face
peering out
from its silver frame
A face, curious
yet knowing,
the doubt erased
by the waking
of a thought
The eyes alight
slowly tracking
caressing the features
of this stranger
in my space
The question
is not why but who
is that person
looking back,
staring at me
Each breath
echoes softly,
fogging the glass
that keeps us
joined

There are so many things that I thought would be,
I’ve since had to realize I may never see.
Like fairytale romance, and love at first sight -
Ideas that have faded like dreams in the night

Now that I’m older, I’ve tried to move on,
Accepting life’s twists as they come along.
Replacing ideals of that perfect love.
With imperfect reality I can be sure of.

A prince on a horse, now a friend’s tag-along.
A musical soundtrack for a warbling song.
The armour I’ll trade for the soft cotton shirt.
Distant courtship becomes online flirt.

No fights for my honour but stand at my side.
Don’t give me a kingdom just bring something fried.
The slaying of dragons can be just a joke,
So long as my heart does not end up broke.

Moonlight serenades, between you and me,
Can be overthrown by watching TV.
The simple things can sweep me off my feet.
Just make sure you can rock to a beat.

The flowery prose and poems of yore
Have all gone the way of the stories before.
The magic and mystery of fairytale hearts
Cannot replace the everyday parts.

Riding off into sunset was always the end.
My happily ever after should be my best friend.
The kiss on the hand can move, that’s for sure.
Falling asleep in your arms is worth so much more.

So give me the scrabble and breakfast in bed,
The blogging, and photos, and rubs to the head.
The fighting and crying are part of it too,
Because stories are stories, but this is all true.

A sea of faces,
eyes not seeing
my fears arise

A chorus of voices,
sharing thoughts
that once were mine

A circle of hearts,
open yet closed
to the cries outside

A circular sea in chorus,
so full of joyous life
and all without me

The rotations of the earth cause certain reactions
Particles flying inward, others flung far apart.
Invisible forces exist, no less real than man;
Pulling and pushing in an eternal balance
As some are drawn in, others give up space
Returning to positions held so long before
An equilibrium in time, the constant change,
things become as they were, to begin again.

A too familiar face on a stranger,
with a voice I know too well
speaking words that make it hard
to separate the facts

The form of memories
brought back once again,
through the casual air
that I remember so well

But this is a stranger,
though familiar he seems,
who reminds me of a friend
that I no longer know